PART 3 -
The UglyWe still own our old house in Montague. For the past two years we've been renting it to a young couple. Their lease was up on July 31st, so last Sunday we drove down to see what it looked like after they moved out.
When we walked in the door we were overwhelmed with the smell of cat pee. The lease stated "No Pets", so how the carpet could be saturated with the odor of cat urine...I'll never know.
My initial reaction after walking around was to burst into tears, then I wanted to vomit.
Kyle bought the house in 1999 and immediately added a large garage, dining room, upstairs mater bedroom and bath, and an office space. He slowly worked on finishing the rooms as money allowed, and after we were married in 2003 he moved into my small house while we finished the Montague house. When all was said and done, the house was completely new - inside and out. New siding, roof, deck, driveway, landscaping on the outside. The inside of the house was drywalled, painted and trimmed. New bathrooms (sinks, tubs, tiles etc.), every window was brand new. We stripped and sanded the maple floors on the lower level and had new carpet put in the upper level. The house shown like a new penny.
It was perfect for newlyweds and great with one baby. When I got pregnant with Josie we started looking for something bigger and eventually bought our current (and last) home. At the same time the housing market tanked, and we decided to hang onto the house and rent it out. The couple we found as renters seemed perfect. He was an engineer, she was a nurses aide. I felt really comfortable with them as renters. What a mistake!
Our white custom cabinets are brown with grease, grime and dirt. The toilets and sinks look like they've never been scrubbed. The walls are covered with soot (we think they may have supplemented the gas heat with a Kerosene heater). The smell of cat pee is overwhelming. They must have parked cars in the yard because the grass that Kyle worked so hard to grow and care for is completely gone. They threw garbage and car parts down the hill behind the house, and there is a 5'x5' area of oil-soaked dirt outside the garage door. But, the saddest part...the carpeting. The plush,
latté colored carpet is matted and black with grease and dirt. I don't know if it's salvageable.
I know we should have expected this when allowing strangers to live in our house, and I need to realize that's what it is...a
house. It's not our
home. However, it's so hard to separate what is inside those walls from the memories I have. The blood, sweat and tears that went into creating a space that contained our first years of marriage. The roof and walls that kept us warm and safe while we learned how to be new parents, and watched our oldest daughter take her first steps and say her first words.
It's just a house. Hopefully, if I saw that enough I'll start to
believe it.